eventually i have to deal with the fact that you are not coming back.
period.
no matter how fucking hard this is without my best friend.
i look at the kids and cant help but think of you.
your pictures next to my calendar.
there are promises that i made to you, and im trying my best to keep them.
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xoZaidaox
Sunday, January 31, 2010
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Saturday, January 30, 2010
miss you....love you.....
My dearest James,
I miss you so much.
I miss your presence, your humanity in my life.
I miss telling you my good news and you
saying how much I deserve happiness and
goodness and me thinking I never did.
I've been good at only thinking of the good times with
you and not about you being here.
My weakest moments bring me here.
I haven't been here in a while because
I was focused on not being sad that you are gone.
But my heart still hurts, the way it always did.
You were one of the best people in my life!!!!!
And still hold that place. I now know why I haven't allowed
myself to cry in a long time, bc when the tears come they dont
stop. My dearest James. I miss you. My heart aches.
But because you taught me how to be strong, that is what
and who I'll be strong! the way you were...
Love always, always, always, always
~Kamela
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