Dear Friend,
It just occurred to me that I have waited soooo long for the new Maxwell CD to drop and
I am probably the only Maxwell lover who hasn't bought, it downloaded it,
or forced one of their friends to make a copy of the CD for them. I am scared, as silly as it
sounds. Maxwell, was what I shared with you, although you called him gay because I drooled
over him, and you hated any attention that wasn't solely your attention. But I know you would
sit in your apt and play it over and over just like I did. It does make me a little nervous when
I think of getting it, I don't want to willfully remind myself that I can't call you and that you aren't
train ride away. I will surely let you know when I do purchase the CD and you'll definitely know
when I have listened to it and cried my eyes out. I remember listening to Urban Hang Suite and
NOW so many times I burnt the CD out until it couldn't play in my CD player anymore and I had to
buy new CDs!! =)
That last thing I wrote to you about being at peace that was a momentary thing.
The peace I think that was, was me not making myself ill about missing you.
But to accept that what happened last year happened, still stings
Kamela
Saturday, July 18, 2009
I haven't yet...
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Thought of You....
I am at peace.
I still think of you often.
I have loved you.
And you have made me smile
and continue to make me smile
you give me private moments where
I can have a secretly smile and no
one is the wiser.
For that alone I am thankful.
I do miss you.
I am at peace.
I can think of you, still be a little
sick in my stomach, I can relate to those
pains now, but they don't keep me up at night
anymore.
Oh, James, you are great.
Have always thought so.
Just wanted to write to you
because I am moved by you at this moment.
I can't call you when I think of you,
but I can stop and come here and release my
thoughts into the comic world and know you got it.
~Love you James Shawn Agostini <3
Kamela
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Gone Too Soon...
James,
I cried when I heard this song and thought of you...
it left me breathless...
Gone Too Soon
Like A Comet
Blazing 'Cross The Evening Sky
Gone Too Soon
Like A Rainbow
Fading In The Twinkling Of An Eye
Gone Too Soon
Shiny And Sparkly
And Splendidly Bright
Here One Day
Gone One Night
Like The Loss Of Sunlight
On A Cloudy Afternoon
Gone Too Soon
Like A Castle
Built Upon A Sandy Beach
Gone Too Soon
Like A Perfect Flower
That Is Just Beyond Your Reach
Gone Too Soon
Born To Amuse, To Inspire, To Delight
Here One Day
Gone One Night
Like A Sunset
Dying With The Rising Of The Moon
Gone Too Soon
Gone Too Soon
Love Always,
Kamela
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Maxwell....
The world keeps changing and moving and growing.
It would definitely be a better place if you were still in it.
Maxwell's long awaited new album is about to drop!!!
I cannot believe it! Finally!!
I remember not really liking Fortunate. HA!
Now, it takes my breath away....miss you.
Who will I have if not you to call and sob about it to???
Maybe I need to do this one on my own, huh?
I get it!
I've done alot this year I thought I couldn't and always
had you in the back of my mind telling me that "I could"
Thank you for all my Maxwell memories.
If you thought he made you cry before!!!!
you have no idea what's ahead!! lol
oxoxoxo
Kamela
