I haven't yet...

Dear Friend,

It just occurred to me that I have waited soooo long for the new Maxwell CD to drop and
I am probably the only Maxwell lover who hasn't bought, it downloaded it,
or forced one of their friends to make a copy of the CD for them.  I am scared, as silly as it
sounds.  Maxwell, was what I shared with you, although you called him gay because I drooled
over him, and you hated any attention that wasn't solely your attention.  But I know you would
sit in your apt and play it over and over just like I did.  It does make me a little nervous when
I think of getting it, I don't want to willfully remind myself that I can't call you and that you aren't
train ride away.   I will surely let you know when I do purchase the CD and you'll definitely know
when I have listened to it and cried my eyes out. I remember listening to Urban Hang Suite and
NOW so many times I burnt the CD out until it couldn't play in my CD player anymore and I had to
buy new CDs!! =)

That last thing I wrote to you about being at peace that was a momentary thing. 
The peace I think that was, was me not making myself ill about missing you.
But to accept that what happened last year happened, still stings

Kamela