Miss you...

Oh my dearest friend...I'm am angry again because this is not the I want to talk to
you.  I miss you sooo much.  I miss your laugh and crude sense of humor and
your...what sense does all this make??? A year and almost four months later,
and still I feel like my heart has been ripped out. It doesn't get easier. It just
doesn't.  I hang my head in sadness when I think what has become. I am tired
and don't feel like dealing with this. It's not fair.  I want to call you, talk to you, to be
quiet with you.  A have a friend and he reminds you so much of you and he makes
me laugh so hard, then my heart stops and I lose my breath because I think of you.


~Love Always,
  Kamela