I miss you soooo much

James,

I miss you so much, sometimes I get so angry

I know you are much happier and you are in a better place, but I can't help it.

I guess that is just the self fish part of me wanting you here with us

I miss the silly stories you tell

I miss you calling and saying to me so are you coming over or what

I miss you saying to me come over I'll cook you something

You know, I never liked pepper jack cheese and because of you I do now

The first time you said to me taste it, it's good, I said no, but I did anyway and now I love it

I miss you saying to me bring clothes because you are staying over tonight without giving me a chance to say yes or no lol

I miss you making me laugh

I miss going to the movies with you

I miss everything about you

I often asked myself is it possible to miss someone so much

I guess the only answer I can come up with is yes, its possible

It has been months and this is still so hard, I can't believe it sometimes

How is it that one person can have such a big impact on my life

Most of the time I'm fine, and then something or someone will remind me of you, and that when Ill have my bad days.

I know its normal to have ups and down like this but why does it have to be so hard 

I love you James

Erin