You again...

You were in my dreams early this morning...
I went to meet you at the Law Dept. and when I saw
you, I gave you the biggest hug.  I didn't want to let go.
You walked around with me still attached to your neck. lol.
Then you took me around to the courts in the Bronx and
Brooklyn and I was helping you do stuff like old times.
Making hundreds of copies, stapling..acting like I worked
there, lol.
And I woke up in a cold sweat.  My clothes were drenched.
My heart was beating and the tears, I cried in my sleep.
God, this felt so, so, so real. 
Just when I thought I was feeling ok,
the very second that the cloud of sadness didn't
decide to swallow me whole, yesterday,like the past 4 months.
I feel you again.  I feel the sadness. I feel the need
to speak to you.  Feeling lost again...
Just to speak to you again.  To see your silly face.
Even to annoy me, would be the best.

James. I miss you.
~Kamela