Miss You Dearly

I dreamt of you last night.

These past two days have been really difficult.

I felt you alot. I felt you very near to me.

It's choking me.

The dream last night was so real. I felt the hurt.

I felt the tears. I felt the fear.

But..

You always made me smile.

You always knew how.

The littlest things you did brought joy to me.

My most favorite gift you gave me was the

goofy keychain.  I remember when you gave it

to me.  It out the biggest smile on my face and

warmed my heart and still does to this day.

   God...I can't do this...

I feel so empty.

To have you here.

To have you call me and say hi.

To tell me about one of the crazy women in your life.

lol. you had some drama. lol.

Just to talk. To hear your voice.

To hear you smile on the other line.

I could hear the feelings on your face always

when we spoke. You'd tried to be cool and

act like you don't care but I knew...I knew it all.

  I cannot make any sense of this.

you not here, it doesn't feel right. This is not the

way it was suppose to be.  You were suppose to

help me look for an apartment. You promised you

would help me. You promised me.

Sometimes, times like now, I feel like I'm going insane!!

You knew. You knew me.

You knew when to call me. Cuz I needed to hear your

voice but was too proud to call. You knew and You still

know. And so do I...

 

~Love You Always and Forever

  Kamela