Just wanted to say...

James,

Miss you these days.
You're the first person besides those with me that I wanted to call and tell the craziness that
I did!!!
I am sooo not sure how you would react to me jumping out of a plane!!
It was absolutely horrible and exhilarating at the same time!!!
I cried the entire way up on the plane and screamed all the way down.
It was the most insane thing I've ever done, well except for other thing, but this was way more
fun!!!!

I've been needing your advice lately.
I can't comprehend the fact that there is no reaching you.
There's no me talking to you. And you actually answering me.  No you bothering me.
No us talking for hours, just to fill a void, the one where we miss the other's
company.
You know that you were one of my most closest friends.  Although you denied it, you
were a part of my life that there was no letting go of.  No letting go. I thought there
were so many, many days to experience together and to learn about each other.

I love you soooo much and you're gone and I am so broken-hearted. So broken,
but you're absence has changed me.  I never, never wanted you out of my life, and this
is an evil joke.  But you've changed me.  I've always wanted more out of life, but you had it all.
You had the loves of your life. You have a beautiful child. You have a great, great family that I was
honored to know for so long and continue to know, always, always, and love.  You traveled and sent me
postcards of your travels.  You worked and lived and strived.  The proudest moment I had for you was when you
choose you.  You choose to work and build a future.  But you did it all.  And now more than ever I want it all.
With no fear, because what's the worst that could happened...I've loved head first, fallen and loved again and
again, I've had many to love me, again and again.  I've strived and will continue to strive...

James you are inspiring.  You always have been. I love and miss you,
Your Pal,
~Kamela

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~Kamela