...............

My memories, now where will they lie.

They toss to and fro,

in my mind. They haunt me in the

"space between my ears", to quote you.

There is no understanding to quench my

thirst of questions, of wanting, of emptiness.

I don't believe any other could cause such a stir.

My mind hangs heavy and weights me down.

The tears, the drown me in my space, in the

race to overcome them, to not cry, to not be

weak and miss you, and not feel like I am the

only one in the world to lose the dearest person

to me.

My days now, are so quiet. I miss you laughter.

I miss you silence. I miss you awkward hello,

the way you act when I call you, like you don't

know who I am. I could never forget your voice.

Or mistake it with another. Your excitement.

Your anger. Your joy. Your pain. It was all you.

 

The days you lived, makes so much sense now.

All the pieces fit the puzzle.  And now your no where

around so that I can have my "ah ha" moment.

You caused so many of my "ah ha" moments.

I want you here. I am self fish and never be fulfilled...

 

Saddness consumes me.

 

 

Love you...

~Kamela

 

 

 

 

 

~Kamela