Can't sleep...

So last night I could not fall alseep.

You were spinning my mind around and around.

Finally, I allowed you to take over my thoughts.

And the tears came. They didn't not stop.

The thoughts were from so long ago and

from the recent past. I miss you.

I spoke to you alot last night.

Time does not heal anything.

It makes it worse.

It makes me think

about how I'll never be able to call you.

It reminds me of all the "GREATS"

I can't call you for.

It reminds me that my friend,

who of few knows me best won't

be on the other line or whose face

I'll never see again.

It reminds of me that handsome

face, the one that will never age.

It reminds me how you won't

call me a billion times begging me

to meet you.                

I am so angry. It's not fair....

I cried myself to sleep.

Forever 'n a Day
~Kamela :)