Hi......

Hey you.

You know I thought as the days went by, things would get bearable, not

easy, just enough where I can do my daily living.

But, I can't.

I'm stuck.

I 'm stuck in a place of no hope, confusion, torment, and endless dreams.

I don't know why I dream of you so much. But it kills me, cause I feel you

in my dreams, and hope you're here when I awake. (My keyboard is drenched with tears)....

You are definitely are hard person to get over....you've always been.

I never could imagine you not here. Even if you moved, I knew I would be able to call you.

Even when we didn't speak for a while you always, always, always called me when I missed you.

God, this can't be happening.  In a month I will

start my last semester finishing my second BA, then it's off to grad school. I need to be.

I thought if I took this time to grieve you, alllow you to envelope me, cry my eyes out, that when

I needed to return to my life I would be able to, but it doesn't seem like it.

I use to love being alone. I loved my alone time, just me and my thoughts, although I still love it,

I dread it, cuz I get lost in my thoughts and you consume me. I want to speak to you. I need to know that you

are good. I want you here!!!!!!!!
I only hope you knew what you meant to me. I think you do cuz you were always too cocky for your own good.

I remember when we first met. I thought," augh, he's so full of himself...." little did I knew I was fall for it. lol.

I miss your friendship. I miss knowing you'd always, always be here. I miss those odd calls, at odd times, usually

about nothing...

I think I'm going insane.......I gets harder and harder to breathe at times.......
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~Kamela :)