You Stayed!!!

I never had many friends, and I still don't.
I find it hard to trust people and let them get close
cause they always disappoint.
I could never understand how you 
had so many friends and you knew
so many people. I was and still am a wallflower
but you had always been the center of attention
and it drove me crazy.  You were always on the go
and now I know why. You never wanted to be
alone.
Your life, the way you lived it, it makes sense now.
The pieces of your life now put together fits,
just like the puzzles you loved fit, it all fits now.
I have visited this page so many many many times
in one day. I'm probably the one who keeps uping the
count. lol. I just need to talk to you.  You and two other
souls were the closest to me, three felllas in my
life. Now there are only two. One my love and the
other my BFF, and you, you were you, you never
fit into any category, any one role.  But you fit in
my heart, you sat and sit in my heart comfortably.
Many times, this past month, I've wanted to talk
to you.  We've always talked, we would talk for
hours and that's the one thing I loved about us.
I've been talking to you alot, but silence is what
I've gotten in return.  I'm not used to this silence
between us. Even when we weren't talking
we'd call each other. You were my habit, rarely
had you ever said "I'll call you back" but when you
did I made you feel guilty and you stay on the phone
with me. lol. 

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~Kamela :)