what dreams may come

so, ive been having crazy dreams with you since the sunday night of the wake. there have been lots of them, and super vivid - where it seemed like that was real life and our real life is a dream.

there was the one where you seemed to be in a foreign country. it was town like, every dirt hut had two stories. wide open spaces.

there was the one that was city-like but i had never seen that city before, where there was some chick waiting around the corner, seeking revenge for some wrongdoing, and i told you to not go there. she did something and your cheeks turned green, and i kept trying to wipe it off.

i cant remember the rest because im trying too hard now, but the one where you scared the shit out of me just wasnt cool at all. not kidding.

im sleeping and i feel a person walk into the room. it's like when ryan was little and i was alseep i could "feel" him walk into the room right before he woke me up. and daniel says "how do you feel someone?" and the only way i can describe it is when you feel someone staring at you, and you turn to look, and in fact they are staring at you. it's a very strong energy. anyone who's felt someone staring at them can understand how you can feel someone walk into the room.

so, that was the other night. i was sleeping alone, it was the middle of the night, daniel slept on the sofa, ryan was at a sleepover, it was blazing hot. i was asleep and i felt someone walk in the room and i tried to open my eyes but they were so heavy. i saw your shadow, blurry white shadow, leaning in my door frame. i thought i was dreaming but i felt an insane amount of energy. i wiped my eyes to double check and the blurry white became more clear instead of less so. i was wide awake at this point and screaming in my head out of fright, but sitting there silent. i blinked and you were gone. and i was too afraid to get daniel because i would have had to pass the door frame.

i freaked out. seriously.

please dont do that again. it's really not nice, i dont give a shit how funny i looked.

xx zaida xx